all i know is that your the nicest thing i've ever seen
i cant help compare it all. side by side. piece by piece. tear by tear. havn't cried for such a long time. people have died and i still cannot cry. you took away that part of my soul and theres just an empty space. a gaping wilting darkening hole
but when i was with you i dreamed of her. it was always kate. the one that came along too soon. haha i remember core 4 and inside jokes, i compare them to my new ones. i compare everything. its not healthy is it. i keep thinking i can build the life i want- but thats not true. so much power in my hands? even if i try i'll never breathe. even if i built it id destroy it. because theres a darkness inside me that overcomes every moment of happiness ;)
it might be tradgic but its true. sad songs and aching hearts; no tears tonight because i blocked it all out. an anger burns inside but my hearts numb. there are 5 stages of grief. ive lost count. no sleep tonight; only your sweet reminders. which girl was it? it was all of them. they all did this. or did i do this? did god do this? does this darkness have a name? who are they. why are they here. why do they kill us
had a fresh new chance to start again, but its worse than ever. jealous over people who im not even with. jealous of everything. my bloods not red. and my minds not real. i swear i'll never be happy again. did you guess her name?
